Absence

I have been gone so long it feels outstanding. I looming gap that I have not thought about. I must admit it felt sooo good not blogging. What? I had more time, it was completely different and I had more time to focus only on Hayden and I.




Emotionally lately I have been a nervous reck it's not cool feeling that way, or being as paranoid as I've been lately. Yes, there is reason, reasons I choose not to say but overall. I know I need change, change into something simple, not complex. May has been just a hard month for me as a person, my emotional state, the only thing not affected would be my parenting for Hayden. He has kept me sane and close as possible to the Earth during this time. My best friend thinks its the reality of my Mom leaving town. I don't know, but I do know I've never had an entire MONTH BE so bad.

And in the greater scheme of things, my son had a birthday. Birthday! Birthday! And he is no longer my 1 year old but my cutie pie 2 year old. Terrible twos my tail, I love him at this age I hope he never grows up. This time is too fun too precious, special and unique.


I have little pictures except some from DSLR because I was a genius and washed my Canon Powershot in the washer with my swimming things earlier this month. Nice...I know. Bad bad May.

Shaking it up

I know I haven't been posting much but its been because I've been insanely busy. Lately, I have been doing tons of writing, chasing after Hayden , snapping photos, and reading, reading, reading on photography. Another thing is I've been thinking about changing things up a bit on this blog. For a while now this has been Hayden's blog and I've thinking of indulging more of my husband and I in too not just leave it a Mommy blog, because there is so much more to me than just being a mom. And with Hayden turning two, I have gotten back many things that I didn't have time for, or was blocked creatively. lately, I have done lots growing, thinking, and agonizing. Over future where do I wish to be in so and so years, family, aspects, accepting this and that- whatever I've gone through alot.
And I've realized I have a hard time just putting myself out there. I would love to make many blogger friends and people know me the person- Not just my son and life as a Mom. Yes, I'm Hayden's mom but I am also Mia.
So hopefully, I will decide on what to do with the other blog- my photography- add it here or switch it to tumblr or wordpress. But I am looking forward to doing and posting more stuff and having people get to know me and my tiny family more. 

Mother's Day 2011

This mother's day was the best I could have ever asked for. Usually on Mother's Day I am indifferent, I am still on duty, I get a pat on the back,a few happy Mother's Day, a present or 2 and overall its any other day as always. I don't put too much into it when it comes to me.

this Mother's day was no different at first. My husband had to work,so on Saturday he cooked me breakfast, lunch, and dinner. he is a great cook so I love it when he cooks, which is more often than one would think.

I woke up at noon today- yes, noon. I originally woke at about 8am and realizing that the house was quiet, I went back to sleep. The toddler didn't wake me until pass noon. :)  !! I loved it! Even then we didn't leave the bed, but I switched on my partner in crime and parental BFF Netflix instant stream, put on the Backyardigans, and we sat watching it until Hayden got hungry. He even watched it as I set up Breakfast *cough* lunch. I returned to bed with the food! We ate, massacred the bed with crumbs, and I snuck some Spider man in on Netflix before we got up.

About 2 my husband's boss had a heart and let everyone off and we quickly dressed deciding to accept an invite to his parent's house. Eating was cool as always there and who doesn't like a dinner cooked by someone else on Mother's Day? but afterwards, Hayden didn't want to stay inside, so after much resistance I gave in, thinking they have a backyard that I envy might as well enjoy it. I grabbed a ball, Hayden grabbed an even bigger one and after playing chase, we did catch and kick ball.
Things like  this made me happy to be a Mom to Hayden: To see his face as he threw a simple sphere object in the air, giggling all the way, to breath in and sigh it out that life can be so simple and a pleasure at any and every time if it were new an different or actually adventure out and try new stuff.

I loved this Mother's Day because I realized that it WAS any other day- A day to appreciate and have a good time with my son. A time to take the day to day tantrums and applaud the new found independence and intelligence that brings on these fits from hell. A day like any other day that I wake up to my little alarm clock, happy to see me.

I love this Mother's Day because I am a Mother. I got to see Hayden do many cool "firsts" like riding a battery powered John Deere truck that everyone calls "Gator."

I got to see my husband play Daddy and give Hayden lessons on a trike.

Even Hayden going up to Grandpa's motorcycle, asking to get on it, making sounds like its on before grabbing the handles and moving them . Very proud Mommy moment, I just flashed to him being older and getting on it.

Or him having a mind blowing time getting on the actual tractor and crying when we pried him off of it! Just great, priceless stuff that makes me glad to be a mommy.



Of course, I took some pictures! Its what everyone wants to see anyway.

Riding Gator

Trike lessons from Daddy

On Grandpa's Motorcycle and tractor

Happy
Mothers Day to all, hope everyone had fun too!

my week in iphone pics

I am linking up w/ Amy. She does this link up of basically  a week in cell phone pics.

Playing at the park

Taking pictures w/ my Canon

Playing in the car

Daddy and son watching TV

top left: car seat, toy; bottom left: cheesing 4 da camera; center: smiles; top right: playing in my window; bottom right: playing w/ my tripod

Wkend Pt Deuce

Okay. I really honestly forgot that today was Wednesday, indeed 100 and 10% for the life of me I thought it was Tuesday. Where has my week exactly gone? BUSY. Busy doing Mommy stuff, not getting any sleep because my toddler wants Mommy to cuddle with him in his new bed, trying to my house organized (sent I got back from Los Angeles I have had little to no motivation to keep up with simple tasks such as putting laundry away). I have several laundry baskets waiting to be folded and/or hung, putting me behind in the dirty stuff because I don't want to wash and have more baskets. I really need to get on it A Sap BUT...I have a toddler that always wants me outside.
Then there's writing. Yes, I have started back writing, so happy I have gotten my mojo back. But it takes soo much time and effort to balance motherhood and getting in enough time to write. I am hoping to find some time to pen some poems that I can post on my LiveJournal. And I also have picked up my guitar again, yes Hayden still messes with it but I kinda brush it off because I am secretly overjoyed to the max that he even likes the darn thing.

Anywho I had a weekend. This weekend we were so rudely (not JK) awaken by David's parents asking if we wanted to meet up at a park and have Hayden play. Of course, I was still sleep at this time (No it was 11am like the clock said, I set the clock wrong *side eye*) So we crawled out of bed like the zombies we felt like and went to the park. This was our third trip to the park spring started but I really love the park as you can see, and have plans to travel all over Fresno to visit and make use of our many parks.




Hayden had lots of fun playing on the playground. He even convinced himself that he liked swings and tried many unsuccessful times to get me to let him swing. But he paid me back by climbing over and over again the contraption in the first and second photos, stopping my heart every time he did it. One more way of him showing me how much he isn't my little baby anymore but my little toddler that wants to do what he wants and do everything himself. As you can see he had much fun of Sunday was the brighter end of a pretty dismal weekend. ;( SO far this week has been better, I don't have much planned for this coming week except maybe realizing BIG TIME and getting some major writing done while I have David around for the one day he has off. Yeah, he is working on Sunday. He has been putting in some crazy hours lately.  I am totally looking for him another job, the one he has just has gotten too time consuming and he is almost near home. He needs something else, *here's to hoping*

Weekend pt1

This weekend didn't even seem like a weekend. My husband worked all day on Saturday in fact I didn't know it was even a Saturday until 4:00pm! I was woken up by my sister and cousin saying that my mom wanted to see Hayden before she left. We spent of the time at my Mom's. It was bittersweet for me seeing my family leave Fresno, I am not even sure when I will see them again. Hard...

Then I put Hayden down for a nap and before I knew it David was home. My mom had a couch that used to belong to David's grandfather and we had to get it and move it over to our place. It looks pretty cool in our living room and now for some reason our looks more homely and less like an empty space.
For weeks now I have been on the look out for Hayden a big boy bed, I simply felt it was time. So when my mom mentioned she would be leaving hers, I decided to take it for Hayden. So Friday night, extremely exhausted and all my husband and I decided to get Hayden's bed up. Hayden helped, he hindered, he jumped relentlessly on the boxspring before we finally go the bed up and in a position I liked. I wanted him with full size bed, he ended up a huge queen size bed that makes him look like a doll when he sleeps in it.
But man was it needed. Hayden loves it so, so much, he plays on it, jumps on it, and on Saturday once we went home he played on it ...and ...fall...asleep. Yup, the big bed gets major points on the Mommy scale, plus now we can lay in bed together and read.